Monday, November 24, 2003

Friday I went to class, and I actually turned in a lot of stuff. I might not fail afterall! Well I have to do a presentation on something photographic, but I don't know what yet. Maybe that lady who took the pictures from the depression. Anywho, after class I got ready and went to Todd's. I saw his Blazer in the parking lot at his work, so I pulled in, as soon as I parked he walked out. He was so tired. We went back to his house and hung out and ate some food. We were both pretty tired and Todd wasn't feeling well, he was coughing and said his sinuses hurt, so we went to bed. on Saturday we were being lazy, we didn't get up til around 11, and we wanted to be at the campsite on assateague island by 12. well we ended up getting there around 5. We bought wood for our fire from the assateague firewood guy, he said the wood was garunteed to be dry, and if it didn't burn to bring it back and get a refund. hmm, ok, lets bring back half burnt firewood, yeah.. So we got everything unpacked from the car and brought it to our site, it was right next to the beach basically, behind a big dune. We had to carry everything to the site, it was like 100 yds, but man it felt longer when you've got your arms full of stuff. We set up the tent and got it up just before the sun went down all the way. Todd started a fire and we sat down. Todd forgot his sweatshirt so he put on like 4 layers of long sleeve and t-shirts, and i gave him my blanket. It started getting cold, and Todd was really cranky from being sick and getting everything set up. We went into the tent to warm up and took a little nap. Then Jason and his friend showed up around 11. We all hung out, it was fun. Then we went to bed around 2am. The tent was full of little condensation drops on the walls and cieling. They kept falling down on us getting us wet. We hid under the covers trying to escape them. In the morning I woke up at the crack of dawn, I wanted to take pictures of the sunrise. I got out of the tent and walked to the beach and took some pictures. It was so quiet out. I wanted to see some ponies, but no luck. I went back to the tent and fell back to sleep. Then me and Todd got up around 10 and started a fire and were sitting there and Todd played guitar. Jason and his friend were still asleep. Todd said we should drag their tent into the brush, we tried, but failed. We only managed to wake them up in a state of confusion. It was pretty funny though. Then we packed the stuff into the car, and Jason wanted to go surf fishing. Todd said he kinda wanted to go home, but that he would do it for a little while, and lay on the beach. We got a blanket and set it out on the beach and layed there in the sun while Jason fished. They didn't catch anything. We had to be checked out of the site by 12, so we headed back to the car. On the way back we saw some ponies at our campsite! 2 mares, a foal, and a pretty pinto stallion. They walked right up to me, I was tempted to touch one, but I resisted. I want them to stay as wild as they can. I took some pictures of them, and then we went back home. We took our showers and took a good 2 hour nap. Todd was happy to be warm and at home. We ate some dinner and watched some TV. I made Todd some soup to try to make him feel better. Then we watched dreamcatcher. When it was over we headed upstairs for bed. Todd has some homework to do so I just sat there and drew him on a peice of paper. When he was done I set the clock for 7:30 and fell asleep around 2. I woke up.. looked at the clock...8:40... son of a... I had set it for pm instead of am. Oh well, nothing I could do now, went back to sleep. Todd woke up around 9 and finished his bio homework. Then I shaved his neck.. apparently he says it makes his haircut last longer. hrmm.. oh well. Then we put everything in the car and Todd gave me some tickets to give his brother in annapolis. I said bye and drove to his parents house to give them the tickets. His mom talked to me for a little while, and asked if I'd be with the for thanksgiving, and I said yep, around 4. I almost slipped that my parents would be gone, but I caught myself. I went home and had something to eat and then went to a dentist appointment to get 2 fillings. it sucked. The whole left side of my face was totally numb. It just went away like 30 minutes ago, so thats what.. 5 hours? sheesh. Well now I'm at class and everyone is leaving, so thats all for now. peace

Thursday, November 20, 2003

Hello journal,
today was an interesting day. It started normal enough, I went to class and had to draw some naked chick. Atleast it wasnt some old lady though, she looked like she was in her mid-20's, and she actually had a decent body. The guys kept trying not to look, but they kinda had to to draw her. After class I thought I was running late for my doctors appt., so I was trying to get home and get a shower real quick. Then this stupid guy in a nasty brown truck with "dirty south" written on the back window started pulling up next to me and looking at me, ew it was nasty, he was scary looking. so i started going faster trying to get away and then it happened, all the cars started slowing down and there was a cop right on the shoulder, shit! I was so worried about that dumb dude that I didn't even see him. I didn't have enough time to slow down and then the lights turned on. I was so screwed. I put on my innocent face and tried to be polite. He gave me a ticket for $75. I don't know how I'm gonna pay for it. I'm gonna wait for the court date and see if they will take it off my licence. The cop said they probably would since it was my first offense. So I got home and took my shower and I had just gotten out when my sister said the doctor was on the phone. They had to cancel my appt. cuz my doctor had an emergency. so now I have to call tomorrow to try to get another doctor to take me before january when i won't have any insurance since i wont be a full time student. Sigh. My sister wanted me to make some slideshow for her friend for her birthday, of picture of them. So i said okay, thinking it would be a nice thing to do since she didn't know how to do it. It took me 2 hours to do the html and edit everything and scan the pics and resize them and all. I didn't even get a fucking thank you. theres gratitude for ya. Then I was sitting around watching tv, and I fell asleep on the couch. I didn't wake up til 7:30.. yep I missed my class. damn, im really doing good today. So then I just hung out on the computer and talked to Todd for a while. He got some morning glory seeds and tried them the other day. I called him and he prettymuch sounded normal, maybe a little high. Anyways, I got off the phone with Todd and now I'm here.

Todd decided to come home to have dinner with his family and to see me on Sunday, which made me really happy! We ate steaks with his family and then watched some tv, we waited for his little sister to come home from religion class so we could all have desert. Then me and Todd wanted to go out for some coffee. We tried some starbucks place, but they close at 9:30 on sundays. so we went to this little cafe called 49 west i think, in downtown annapolis. it was real artsy and had original paintings on the wall for sale. They had some lady and her husband playing guitar and flute at the front, it was real funny like folk stuff. it was ok i guess though. I could tell it wasnt Todd's kind of place though, lol. So we both ordered some caramel lattes. and 2 cookies. Todd asked why its called a latte "because it costs a latte and takes a latte time to make" haha... So then Todd paid the check and we went back to his house. We cuddled up on the couch. It was so nice. He was being a sweetie. I told him about how i was kinda upset that he said i only made him happy sometimes. and he was like "I was in a weird mood that day, You definitely do make me happy" so that made me feel better. He was being all nice and stuff and he was like "i dont know what it is about you, I can't get enough of you" :) aww..We hung out until around 1, he had to get up early to leave in the morning to go back home. It was a nice day with him, and he told me he definitely wanted me to come to salisbury this weekend :) yay. Well thats about all the news for now. job hunting and finals are coming up, so I'll try to keep this thing updated. Cya later!

Wednesday, November 12, 2003

Well I'm back, this week has been a little more tense than last week, me and Todd had a little tisk, nothing huge but I don't really wanna talk about it. I apologized for acting dumb and we're moving on. Lately Todd has seemed more depressed. I wonder why I can't make him as happy as I want him to be. I talked to him about it last night and he said that he thinks he has some kind of depression but he doesnt know why. He said he's only truly happy when he's out in the water surfing. I wish I knew how to make him happy, but I don't know how. He said he's always been that way but he doesn't know why. It sucks. I want him to be happy. I wish he could be that happy with me. Last weekend he was sitting around talking with some friends and he was laughing so hard and it made me happy to see him happy, but I kinda was jealous that he was never that happy around me, and it made me kinda sad that I didnt know how to do that. I told him he shouldoking at the world differently, not just as a place destined to end someday, but to see the amazing things that happen that people overlook, like things in nature and what not. He didn't seem to understand the way I thought, and it kinda bothers me that we think so much differently. I wish I could show him how it is to feel like I do. To see the beauty and the miracles that happen everyday, not just the science of how it all works. I don't know if I can be with someone who I can't make happy, or who I can't talk with about my feelings because he just doesn't get it. I hope I can help him to be happier in the future. Meanwhile, nothing really has been happening, going to school and work is about it. The leaves of the fall have started falling and the colors are prettymuch gone. It's been rainy and cold so it's kind of a depressing sort of time. There are only 3 weeks left in the semester, I can't wait for it to be over. I want to find a job and finish my certificate. I want a real job where I make more than $6 an hour. Where I can finally put all my years of knowledge to use. Thanksgiving is approaching, my parents will be going to Florida again, 10 days of freedom, ahh. These dreary days have gotten me down a little bit, but I'll try to keep positive and try to do the best I can. that's all for now.

Monday, November 03, 2003

Well, what an interesting weekend I had. I'm going to start with today and then go back to Friday and start from there, so sorry if i confuse u with my anti-chronology.

i skipped class today cuz the waves were looking good on the webcams at Todd's place, so i waited til after Todd's class, i cleaned their house while he was gone, after he got back from class we went to OC, we were out for maybe an hour, i had actually caught a couple waves and was having fun, they were pretty big at about waist high, and i was trying to get up over this wave paddling out, but i was too late and it curled and took me with it, the fun on my board hit my foot, and the leash came loose and the board went with the wave all the way to shore. I couldn't even reach the bottom, and I had to swim all the way to the shore with waves breaking on me and stuff, when i got out i was just sitting there trying to catch my breath for like 5 minutes, then i remembered my foot had been hit and i looked at it, there was a huge gash between my big toe and my index toe, it didnt hurt and it wasnt really bleeding a lot, but there was sand all in it and stuff, it was nasty, Todd didnt see what had happened and he was still out waiting for a wave and i kept trying to wave to him to tell him to come into the shore, but he wouldnt look, and this old lady walked up and asked me if i was hurt, i told her yea, but i had to get my boyfriend to come out of the water, so she started trying to help me wave him in, we tried for like 10 minutes and we saw him look over at us and shake his head, apparently he thought we just wanted him to move cuz there was a guy fishing right in front of him, so then this lady with a dog comes over and she starts trying to get her dog to bark to get his attention, but that doesnt work either, it was really starting to hurt at that point and I was getting kind of annoyed and a little panicked. so i just started yelling out his name as loud as I could and waving him in, he looked and shook his head, but I kept trying until he finally paddled back in. I was sitting on the beach in tears and he came up and looked at it. We washed it off a little and i got a good look at it, it was pretty gross looking. That's when the pain really started to get to me, I was shaking and crying and I didn't know what i was going to do, muchless how I'd explain it to my mom. So Todd carried me up the beach over to the road, we had drifted 3 streets down so I sat on the curb and waited for him to go get his car. He got back and loaded up the boards, then we drove to a faucet to wash off all the sand and stuff, it was throbbing and hurt so bad. We put down a towel on the floor of his car and drove to the 75th street medical place and had the receptionist look at it. She said I might need stitches and a tetnis shot, but they didnt deal with insurance there, and it would be a couple hundred dollars without it. So Todd drove us to the Berlin hospital and we signed in to the ER. I got to be pushed around in a wheelchair so that was kinda cool. It took maybe 20 minutes to get to the doctor, since we were basically the only ones there. He had me soak it in a tub of iodine water to clean it out first then took a look at it, he said I could either get stitches or have it glued and my toes taped together and it would just wear off in about 6 days, so i decided to do the glue. he put it on and Todd was right there with me the whole time holding my hand and telling me it would be okay. He really was a sweetie to me, and kept trying to make me smile and feel better. so then they taped up my foot and I was good to go. I got wheelchaired to the car and we went back to his house at about 5pm. Then he made us some dinner and then i got a sponge bath, heheh ;) I called out of work tomorrow since I won't be able to stand on it all day. So I'm staying the night here and leaving in the morning. I was so glad to see how well Todd handled everything. He was a complete sweetie to me through the entire ordeal. I really think I fell in love with him a little bit more today. I'm so lucky to have a man who will take care of me and make me feel better like he does. I love him so much :)

So now for the rest of the weekend, well I got to Todd's on Friday night after work, He had already started drinking, and had on his Drinkin' Lincoln costume, he looked so funny! So then I started to get my cat costume on, it looked good, I painted on some whiskers and a nose, and then I painted todd a beard. We went over to the neighbors house for the big halloween bash. Everyone was dressed up in cool costumes. I thought I went all out, but these people made me look bad. One guy had a full batman costume on, with fake muscles and everything. And one girl dressed up like Super Girl, and she just had on a tshirt and superman logo underwear (the same ones i have) I started talking to her and I showed her my licence plates that say SUPRGRL, lol, she said she wanted to steal it. So I went inside where people were playing beer pong and there was a dance floor with nobody dancing, me and Todd tried our hand at dancing, but it was weird being the only ones out there, we kissed a little while nobody was looking and then went back into the kitchen where the beerpong was set up and took some shots of vodka. I walked around and some people introduced themselves to me and stuff and I think Todd was a little jealous that guys were approaching me and stuff. One guy like introduced himself and i told him my name and he must have been pretty drunk cuz he was like "You're cute" and I was like "well thats my boyfriend over there so u better be careful cuz he might beat you up" lol... and then the dude walked over to todd and was like "hey, youve got a good girl here, a real good girl" and he was like "i know i do" aww I must have turned 6 shades of red. We were signed up to play beer pong, but it was gonna be a while, so Todd suggested we go back to his house and take some shots. We went over there and he poured them into glasses and somehow we ended up on the couch kissing and stuff. He was getting frisky but I told him that was for later, hehe. I think my cat costume had him all hot and bothered, lol. So then his roomate bob came in with some friends and asked if he could have some of the shots todd made and we all went in there and took a shot. then we went back over to the party. We played beer pong against his roomate Jason and some other guy. I got 4 balls in a row right off the bat. We totally creamed them. It was awesome. After the party we went back to Todd's and my memory isn't as clear, but I think we hung out for a little bit and then went up to his room, Todd layed down and was out as soon as his head hit the pillow, he was completely passed out. lol. In the morning we woke up around 9:30 and hit the waves at OC. It was a pretty good day I caught a few waves, but the paddling was tough, I went into shore and caught my breath. Todd and Jason came in a little bit later and Todd wanted to take my board out so I said okay. Then I noticed on his 7'2 that there was a big break on the rail of the nose, so I didnt want to take it out. I waited til the guys were done surfing and showed Todd. He said it happened when Jason ran into his board. He was a little upset about it. We were all tired so we went back to his house and got cleaned up. Todd took me out to where he worked at Vinny's La Roma. Its a little Italian place. The food was pretty good and I got to see where him and Jason worked. After dinner we went to the mall to pick up some unmentionables from victorias secret ;) we walked around but all the stores were closing. So then we started driving home and Todd picked up 2 bottles of champagne from the liquor store. I actually got to go inside, it was so cool. So then we went back to his house and got my tv and put it in his room so we could watch scary movies. I brought Stephen King's 'It' and 'Cujo'. We decided to watch It first. I put on my newly purchased attire and Todd opened a bottle of champagne for the first time in his life. It shot his door and riccoched onto the floor, it was so funny. so we sat drinking champagne and watching the movie. It was nice. Todd was being all romantic and I was soakin it up. So then when the movie was over we went to bed. In the morning we woke up for Punkin Chunkin in Delaware. Jason, and some guy from work and his girlfriend went with us. We got kind of lost on the way there and had to stop and ask how to get there, but we finally made it. It was a huge mowed down cornfield. There were a bunch of cars and we parked and went to check it out. There were 50 or so different catapoults and air cannons, specifically designed to shoot pumpkins thousands of feet. It was pretty cool to see one get launced up into the air and land with a huge cloud of dust. People on ATVs measured the distances. I think the farthest on of the day was about 1,700 ft. It was so hot outside, it was hard to beleive it was November. So after punkin chunkin we drove home. We rested for a little while and then ate some dinner and went to assateague to make a fire on the beach. It was so cool. On the drive there it was all dark out and we saw some cool miniature deer, and whitetails on the side of the road. we got to the beach and brought the firewood and a blanket down onto the sand. were the only ones there except for a fire way in the distance. It was beautiful out. Todd tried to get a fire started but the wood was a little moist. I tried and finally got it started. We layed there talking and cuddled up in the blanket. We almost fell asleep. It was so nice I almost cried. I told Todd that I have wanted to do it since i was a little kids. Its always been one of those fantasies for me. So then Todd was getting tired so we threw some sand on the flames and went home. We ate some food and opened another bottle of champagne and watched Cujo. Then went to sleep. The next morning was Monday ofcourse, which I started this post with, so you already know what happened. It was a great weekend and everything was perfect. I hope every weekend can be like this from now on. I am really going to miss seeing Todd a lot. He showed me he loved me so many times this weekend. I am really glad to have him as my boyfriend. I know he loves me a lot and I hope he knows how smitten I am with him too.

Well thats all for this weekend, and until next time's exciting adventures in the life of Heather, have fun and wear clean underpants.

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